Somebody please save me. I will give you anything.

Once again he has managed to keep me up until the wee hours of the morning. You have no idea how much it hurts that he doesnt give a shit about my sleep. He makes promises, hints, whatever and he never keeps his word. Then he calls me selfish because I am upset because I can't sleep alone, with the glow of the monitor and the loud typing keys. I am the selfish one. How did I end up in this mess? I don't see how I can continue like this, I need sleep so bad. I am so tired, and not the kind of tired where I didn't get enough sleep last night, but the kind of tired where I havn't gotten enough sleep in so long and it's so deep... I come home from work before him and every chance I get I fall asleep, and then he finds out and thinks I am lazy. Why am I here? Why do I put up with this? And there is nothing I can do. We have talked, we have comprimised, but he does not keep up his end of it. All that is left is to leave him. Leave. I don't think I can do that again. I don't think I can handle another divorce, not emotionally and definately not financially. I am stuck. so stuck. I guess all I can do is blog and cry. That is all I have now.